February 26th, 2009; 12:39 AM
I am in bed right now. Tapping away at my laptop. I wish I was fully relaxed and ready to sleep. But alas, I have ze insomnia. -Like chronic.
I was talking with a friend about *his* insomnia...(he doesn't know that I have serious insomnia too..in fact, I doubt he'd ever even guess it with me. Since I'm usually pretty awake and chipper in the morning.) But all of this not sleeping does wear you down. I know that's why I live to sleep on the weekends. -I'm catching up for all of those hours I missed on the weekdays. ...Anyhoo...I suggested valerian (I saw an acupuncturist and chinese herbalist, and they got me started on valerian) it works really well. And he retorted with "I've tried valerian, Ambien works better." It's tough to argue with that. He's probably right. Ambien is a prescription sleep aid. And here I am with my *herbal* remedies...up at midnight again. ...Man...I need something that will knock me out...just not something that will knock me out like Elvis...or Heath Ledger. Just something that will knock me out like my 4 year old self used to sleep (so heavily that a grown up could pick me up, and move me and I'd sleep right through it.) How did I do it back then??? Where did the deep sleep go???
Current mood:
awake
Up past my bedtime again. awakeI am in bed right now. Tapping away at my laptop. I wish I was fully relaxed and ready to sleep. But alas, I have ze insomnia. -Like chronic.
I was talking with a friend about *his* insomnia...(he doesn't know that I have serious insomnia too..in fact, I doubt he'd ever even guess it with me. Since I'm usually pretty awake and chipper in the morning.) But all of this not sleeping does wear you down. I know that's why I live to sleep on the weekends. -I'm catching up for all of those hours I missed on the weekdays. ...Anyhoo...I suggested valerian (I saw an acupuncturist and chinese herbalist, and they got me started on valerian) it works really well. And he retorted with "I've tried valerian, Ambien works better." It's tough to argue with that. He's probably right. Ambien is a prescription sleep aid. And here I am with my *herbal* remedies...up at midnight again. ...Man...I need something that will knock me out...just not something that will knock me out like Elvis...or Heath Ledger. Just something that will knock me out like my 4 year old self used to sleep (so heavily that a grown up could pick me up, and move me and I'd sleep right through it.) How did I do it back then??? Where did the deep sleep go???
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