February 25th, 2009; 9:15 PM
Came to the realization that yeah...this has been one long haul UNrequited love story. (Yeah Heather, you're right. It was unrequited.) -Filled with tragedy, betrayal, bullshit, and lots of early-aging. ...had a good laugh about that. And then realized that if I was that willing to work hard for a bad relationship..what would happen in my life if I was willing to put that energy into other realms of my life? Or a GOOD relationship? Perhaps even a REquited love story??? -Crazypants fer sure..but it seems like a possibility. Within the realm of possibility, as it were. Had a good time shooting the breeze with my Ukranian friend, and my Stinging-nettles friend, and my ski-bunny-international-rockstar friend.
Stinging-nettles told me about a grant that I might be interested in. *MIGHT* (can I just tell you right now how much I love you? Furthering my education has always been such a highly regarded thing for me, and under these conditions something that has been heartbreakingly difficult. I seriously almost cried when you told me about the grant. Because it is something that touches upon my deepest wish. -To finish my education. ...And how cool it is Stinging-nettles that Miss Beans has found you? And how cool it is to have such love, and encouragement, and camaraderie from my peeps!)
Current mood:
loved
This evening...Had lovely lovey chats with dear-heart girlfriends. -Filled with encouragement, laughter, and love. lovedCame to the realization that yeah...this has been one long haul UNrequited love story. (Yeah Heather, you're right. It was unrequited.) -Filled with tragedy, betrayal, bullshit, and lots of early-aging. ...had a good laugh about that. And then realized that if I was that willing to work hard for a bad relationship..what would happen in my life if I was willing to put that energy into other realms of my life? Or a GOOD relationship? Perhaps even a REquited love story??? -Crazypants fer sure..but it seems like a possibility. Within the realm of possibility, as it were. Had a good time shooting the breeze with my Ukranian friend, and my Stinging-nettles friend, and my ski-bunny-international-rockstar friend.
Stinging-nettles told me about a grant that I might be interested in. *MIGHT* (can I just tell you right now how much I love you? Furthering my education has always been such a highly regarded thing for me, and under these conditions something that has been heartbreakingly difficult. I seriously almost cried when you told me about the grant. Because it is something that touches upon my deepest wish. -To finish my education. ...And how cool it is Stinging-nettles that Miss Beans has found you? And how cool it is to have such love, and encouragement, and camaraderie from my peeps!)
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