The Road From Point A To Point B

May 13th, 2009; 10:12 PM

Current mood:discontent

I won't do it. Will I? I will. Too bad. When will I learn? When will I act with some modest ammount of dignity and self-restraint? When will I say, enough is enough? How do I get myself to the place where I feel like I am winning in this situation and not just the biggest loser in the world, abandoned, and alone, riddiculed, and cast off with joy and anger? How do I change the way I am feeling and looking at this? How do I feel like I have all the power? How do I know my worth? How do I transform this experience into something wonderful for me instead of the biggest defeat and heartache imaginable? And how do I get over my hurt, sadness, and bitterness? I don't want to hate or be mean. I just want to be happy and loved. So how do I get there?