Imprinting

Aug. 12th, 2009 at 12:45 PM


I think the first person you ever love and have sex with is imprinted on you. Like ducks or wild geese. The very first creature their newborn eyes see is supposed to be their mother because that is who they are supposed to bond with. It makes me wonder about how strict and serious my grandmother was about marriage. Perhaps her antiquated notions of love, marriage, forever, and sex had a purpose after all? Maybe she was trying to save me from this pain? Maybe it wouldn't be as painful if shortly after I had sex with Joshua for the first time, I had sex with someone else? Maybe then the imprinting wouldn't be as deep and signifigant? Or maybe it would have always gone this way because who knows?
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