Let's Start From Here...

Aug. 26th, 2009 at 10:57 PM



"Let's start from here, and go with what we've got." My mother said. I was hugging her crying. I just wish that she was well. I was kissing her good night and telling her that I loved her, when I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. 
"You're sad. You're scared." She said. 


"Yes." I sobbed. "I'm both. I just wish you were ok."


"I'm ok." She said. "You're afraid that I'm going to die." She hadn't been this clear in ages. 


"Promise me, that you're not going anywhere. You're not going to die. You're going to live forever, right?"


"I'll do my best." 


Even now, my mom is so honest. She cannot bring herself to lie to me, even when I'm being unreasonable and upset. I love her. She is one of the most noble and loving people that I know. I think about how smart she was to say I wish I was better too. I wish I could wake up and just be better. Like magic. But let's start from here, and go with what we've got. -Basically: let's accept reality for what it is, and do the very best we can in this situation. Still love. Still continue on. Still be happy.
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kitty8fish wrote:
Aug. 27th, 2009 09:23 pm 
I can see where you get your wonderful soul and spirit from. Your mother is truly an amazing individual, so loving and caring and very noble. You are so blessed to have such an amazing mom. I wish there was not this tragedy going on right now, but I really liked what she said about "let's start from here, and go with what we've got." I am giving you so so so much love and so so so much love to your mom, too. Take care of each other as best you can. Big big hugs, love.

Some Things Can Never Be Undone

June 10th, 2009; 8:54 PM
My heart misses you already. I hope that you have courage and bravery. And that at night when you are all alone in your bed, you think of me, and

know

-that somewhere out in the world is someone who loves you deeply, and forever. With an unshakable love that is stronger than anything mankind can construct with their hands. It is deeper than the deep ocean rifts, and reaches further than the stretches of deep space, or light. It is something that is stronger than death. And even if you cannot see me, hear my voice, or feel my touch, know that I am here loving you. Forever.

Fear and Fearlessness

December 6th, 2008; 5:19 AM

Current mood:fabulous

I've written a lot about fear and fearlessness, and how fearlessness is not the absence of fear -- it's the mastery of fear. It's all about getting up one more time than we fall down. ~Arianna Huffington