Standing Alone, And Being Judged

May 11th, 2008; 10:20 PM

Current mood:contemplative

I've decided to not talk to my neighbors about what happened on Friday. I had considered it for a while because I thought it might be more useful to have an open discussion with them about it, just so they know that I do care about my mom, and I am taking care of her. It's just physically impossible for me to work, go to school, and be with her at all times. Even if I was only taking care of her, it would still not be possible to be with her at all times, simply because there are errands that I need to run like grocery shopping, walking the dog, paying the bills, managing the rentals, etc. and I cannot take her with me everywhere, nor would she even want to go each and every time. Sometimes she just wants to rest. And obviously, some times she wants to be a little independent and go for a walk by herself. :-) Anyhoo. George, one of my most trusted and wise friends told me that a big part of growing up is learning to just let some things go. He thought it was best to just not talk to them and let it go. He said that there are times when you will be judged by people who don't have any idea what it is like to be in your position, and even though it's hard, sometimes you just have to let it go. To be strong enough to do what you have to do, and not care about what others think of you.