Friday, May 6, 2011

I'm falling in love again..I can't believe it!?!

  • Jun. 30th, 2007 at 6:09 AM
Floppy Bunny Mess
I think I might be falling in love!?! What a crazy thing. I really didn't intend to . In fact I'm trying my best to take a break from guys. So I really shouldn't even be thinking  let alone writing this. Bah...but writing is such a good release. I have just spent hours talking with this guy...this guy who is NOT Joshua! Hahahahhaaaa hallelullia! I can't believe it myself! Joshua has no idea either. I don't think it could occur to him that I loved him so deeply, but my love won't hang around forever with neglect and worse. I think it will come as a pleasant surprise (for me at least) when he realizes it. Muahhahhahaha (evil laugh). Aaaaah. And this guy...who is not Joshua..(I'm still keeping him a secret girls because I'm still not sure about the whole thing.) BUT! He is sooooo much more akin to me than Joshua ever was or would be. He and I already see eye to eye on so many things. And with him, I can totally be myself, with no need to please or try to fold into *his* life. I think starting with the idea that I didn't want to be in love..gave me a kind of strength. I didn't care about making anything work or fit. And I didn't care if he liked or didn't like the things, people, movies, books, music, philosophy that I did. I just expressed myself and he did too. And we don't agree on everything. But the things that we disagree about we stand by and laugh about. It's not a point of contention...it's actually more points of fascination. We want to know why the other person feels and thinks the way they do. It's soooo great! And he makes me laugh so much. I have a great friend in him. I'm so fucking glowing and happy, I don't think I can sleep. But I must try. hehe. *sigh* He's the best. I can't believe how lucky I am that Joshua and I broke up! YAY BREAKUP! WOO HOO! Bring on the feast of real love honey....Oh...and he calls me "Sweetheart". (((SMILE))) Joshua never called me sweetheart or any other pet names. He's so much more what I've been looking for.  The ocean is full of potential girls! -There are lots of fish out there. ..so just remember.."One monkey don't stop no show!" I'm mixing metaphores but I'm sure you get what I'm getting at!



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[info]kitty8fish wrote:
Jun. 30th, 2007 02:47 pm (local)
YES YES! okay so I know this isn't a for sure thing yet, but now you know how amazing you are and how lovable you are and what kind of treatment you deserve! yay for happy, healthy relationships!
[info]vanmedi wrote:
Jun. 30th, 2007 06:25 pm (local)
That part is totally cool isn't it! *sigh* He's awesome..and SO AM I!!! Yipeeee.

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