Winning the Lottery

April 4th, 2008; 9:29 PM
Current mood:optimistic

I won the lottery! It was only $2. But still...I didn’t even know you could win $2. I matched one number. :-) Woo hoo. I got my money back and made a dollar! Oooh yes. How will I spend it all?

I have to say..Sometimes when things are really hard, I imagine what it would feel like to win the lottery right now. Like how would that change things? What would I do? How would life *feel differently*? I like to feel that immediate sense of the pressure and weight of life lifting. And feel it being replaced with hope, optimism, levity, joy and excitement. I know you don’t need to win the lottery to make a great life. And I also know on some level that all of these struggles and challenges are forging me into a stronger, more capable person. But damn. It feels good to just imagine for a moment with La Suprema, what we would do. I would start by paying off all of our bills. All of the mortgages. And getting rid of my tenants. That alone would be a huge victory. -To never have to see them, deal with them, or have to deal with that neighborhood again! Oooh I can feel the joy right now. I might even hire a lawyer to handle all of it. And just make sure it’s done as quickly and efficiently as possible. Then, I would sell the duplex and buy a vacation home. No tenants. Just our own private home to enjoy. A get away. I would fix up our house, and get a conservatory off of my kitchen so that I could grow herbs year round for my meals. And I would get a reliable car. Either a prius or a volkswagon biodiesel. I think I’d want to finish the semester, but then, I’d go on a road trip. I’d want to see some of America. And take my mom with me. We might even take George. It would be fun to to places. Listen to good music. Sing in the car. Take lots of pictures. I know we would see Chicago, and Colorado. Maybe even Texas. There would be alot to take in. I’d try to get my mom tickets to see Oprah (I think she’d love that.) And in the Fall, we would both go to school in SF. If I win the lottery or not, I still intend on doing most of these things. But it would feel good to do it now. And to know that I had a home base that was secure and would always be mine. The big thing would be not having to deal with my tenants and having our home paid for. That would feel so good.