Holy Kershmackerbies!

February 14th, 2008; 12:05 PM

Current mood:breezy

1. How do you feel about violence?

I think it is part of human nature. Or rather our more base animal nature. And the difference between how we interpret it...whether we see it as *justice* or some version of that..or see it as something horrifying often times is simply a matter of perspective. I'm thinking of that epic scene in Braveheart where he rallies his army and goes off to fight the English oppressors. That was just.+ He was brave. = So therefore we cheered. I wish we could find a better way to interpret what is just. ...But I'm guilty of hypocrisy..because I really love Braveheart, and action movies in general. I'm addicted to violence I guess...at least for entertainment's sake.

2. Do you think natural disasters could be predicted with more caution?

"with more caution???" what does this question mean? Where does caution come into it? ....With more accuracy? -Yes. Sometimes. Not always.  

3. Do you think you make the ideal partner?

For someone. Not everyone. And I'm not an *ideal*...I'm just a woman.

4. Why/why not?

I think first off: *ideals* are subjective. But that we do have some general cultural ideals that I do not fit into. I am lacking in my physical proportions. I don't have exaggerated body parts that would suggest sexuality..such as HUGE breasts, a round butt, and the rest of me being strangely lean and muscular considering those other larger parts. I wish I did. ...Well except for the huge breasts. I've never really wanted HUGE. Most of the women in my family had huge...and it always seemed overrated and painful to me. I'm cool with medium to smallish.

...Oh but beyond the simple facade. I am no where near perfect. I make mistakes all the time. I'm still growing and evolving, so I don't think I'd be *ideal* for everyone. ..I guess even if I was fully evolved (which btw...I don't think anyone ever gets all the way to the point where they're done evolving..what a strange idea?) ..but anyhoo..let's say I was there...I'd still only be well suited for someone who wanted to be with my brand of evolution.

5. Would you ever get a genital piercing?

Probably not.

6. Do you think happiness is underrated?

What?? No.

7. What do you think would be the most embarassing death?

I have this one all figured out. I actually was afraid of it: Being eaten by a shark because you were on your period and still went surfing. That would be an embarassing death. "There was blood in the water...I don't know why she went in. It was a veritable feeding-frenzy."

8. Do you honestly think nice guys will end up better-off in the long run?

No. Hehehe..I've been reading Nietzsche. :-) Ask me on a different day. Usually my answer is Yes. But Nietzsche makes some compelling arguments that are hard to disagree with experientially. When I look around I see the *not-nice-guys* getting ahead in the world. -They get the girl. -They make more money. -They go up, and up, and up all because they are take every opportunity to rise. But what does that have to do with *nice*? Nothing.  

9. How do you feel about self-harm?

People do it. It doesn't make sense. But on some level I believe that there is a good intention behind every action, including non-sensical ones like self-harm.

10. Would/Have you ever done drugs?

Yes and yes. I loves my Tylenol.

11. Where was your first kiss?

In Jonathan's library. I was a little kid. Sitting on a stack of books and he kissed me. (he was a little kid too btw)

12. Where do you wish it was?

I am fine with the one I had.

13. Would you consider yourself deep?

No. Yes. Maybe.

14. Do you think that music lyrics have lost all true meaning?

No.

15. Do you think prejudice should be taken more seriously?

Yes. BIG TIME! I am SHOCKED! SHOCKED! SHOCKED! That neither Clinton or Obama are in favor of gay marriage! Especially Obama! Because HELLO!! I would think that with his background practicing as a *civil rights* attorney...and his long standing history working for (ahem) *civil rights*...that he would fucking get that this is a *civil rights* issue. AND that his personal religious viewpoint should be left out of it! BAH! Same goese for Clinton. I'm just harsher on Obama because he makes such a point of saying how he fights for civil rights...but what it seems he means is civil rights for black people. Mer. That's good. I'm glad. He is a good guy. He's just missing the boat on this one.

16. Do you dislike clingy people?

No. Sometimes I need to be alone, and it can work my nerves. But I love most people. It's ok to be clung to sometimes. Sometimes it's even nice.

17. Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy?

Revenge. :-)

18. Have you ever felt like ripping someone's tongue out?

NO. Eeeeew.

19. Do you know what Russian Roulette is?

Yes. What are we?? 5??

20. Do you think that bullies should be locked up in barns and burned alive?

Oh god! I guess we are 5! Brutal! Gross.. No Way!

21. Which celebrities would you "knock boots" with?

Oooh now I feel 13. I would knock boots with...Colin Firth, but only if he dressed up as Mr. Darcy. Or James McAvoy, Shia LaBeouf, Jake Gyllenhaal, Chiwetel Ejiofor, Jonathan Rhys Meyers, Djimon Hounsou, and Christian Bale. The list goes on and on. In fact it's embarassingly long. I would whore myself on celebrities. ;-P

22. Do immature men amuse you, or annoy you?

Both. I am easily amused. I don't know that I would want to date an immature man. But hanging out and joking is a lot of fun.

23. Are you happy with yourself?

Sort of.

24. Are emos show-offs?

No...stop calling them that too!

25. Do you think that thinking highly of yourself is good or bad?

I think it is good to think highly of yourself. It's not the same as being arrogant. It's simply liking yourself and having self-esteem..good good.

26. Who would you like your next "fling" to be with?

I don't want a fling. I want the real thing.

27. Are you the brawn or the brains?

I didn't realize we had these two types to pick from? Hmmm..Master or Blaster? The brains. But I am strong like ox too!

28. Do you hate those fluro kids?

huh?

29. Isn't it annoying when people have 10489043 msn accounts?

...and why do I care enough to be annoyed?

30. How much does it take to write a literary masterpiece?

Who knows.

31. Have you ever been embarrassed with a lover?

Yes. I'm human.

32. Are you a virgin? Elaborate.

hahahahahahahahahha

33. Do you agree that Kurt Cobain's lyrical ability was underrated?

uhhh nope because I think generally he is well regarded. He was good.

34. List the pros of marriage.

maximized tax rebate!

the ability to inherit without going through probate or getting hit with major taxes.

keeping the tax base for your family property the same when it transfers over.

being able to see your loved one in the hospital and be involved in critical decisions when they are too incapacitated to be able to do it themself.

it's easier to adopt.

a slightly elevated social status. (being percieved as being wholesome)

it's easier to be elected President than if you were single.

there is also someone to share your life with. (hopefully)

a commited stage of a relationship that has immediate meaning to the general public, which makes it less likely that someone will infringe upon said relationship. Meaning: You're married. Everyone knows what that means. You don't need to explain it generally. And it's less likely that someone will ask your husband or wife out on a date...now that you're married. It acts as a kind of social cattle fence, to keep the married people in, and the tarts out. It would be frowned upon if a person openly persued a married person (who's not married to them).

stability (hopefully)

love (hopefully)

to know that you are special, in a way that noone else on this planet is special to one particular person. (hopefully)

it's nice to have someone to share the load with.

and of course married people generally live longer...so I would guess that there's some sort of implyed health benefits to marriage...

increased financial wealth (combined assets)

35. List the cons of marriage.

you have to share (this can be a pro too though)

you have to make decisions with consideration for another person...and sometimes it's just fun to do what ever YOU want to do...without having to consult.

being lulled into a false sense of security. Love, warmth, tenderness, camaraderie, honesty, faithfullness, fidelity, sharing your life with someone, intimacy, trust, having a real connection and union between two people, being special and cared about, etc, etc. ...are not necisarily gaurunteed just because you are married. It is what most people *think* they are getting when they get marriage. But clearly many people live in marriages with out these things, and many people who are not married still have these qualities in their relationship with out the legal documents attached to their relationship.

making concessions

it's more painfull when you break up

there's more risk with more attachment

it's easier to take your partner for granted or to be taken for granted. I think that's why some people lose their spark. -They stop exploring and become complacent in the stability of marriage. This is not how it has to be..but it is how it is often times.

36. Do you think that plot lines for moves these days are just getting worse?

E-gads YES! The improvement of special effects has sadly had a negative consequence on story telling in general. The wrinting (what should be the most important part IMO!) has taken a backseat to CGI.

37. What is the most cliched pick up line you've ever heard?

Do you come here often?

38. Has your heart ever broken from just being too in love?

Yes...hahahahaha it's a beautiful feeling. I'm not sure I'd call it *broken*..it's more like my cup is so full that it is running over with love, appreciation, wonder, and tenderness. 

39. What do you do when you're upset?

I write, listen to music, sometimes I go to the gym, walk the dog, listen to an Anthony Robbins CD, I always try to talk it out, de-stress, have a cup of tea, get a hug, go do something fun. I distract myself. I try to break that state. I adopt the physiology of a person who is happy. So I'll look up, smile...just try to change my state by any means possible. Sometimes though...I just go to sleep.

40. Describe your "dream come true".

I'm happy, healthy, sexy, loved deeply by many people, in love with someone who is in love with only me, my mom has made a miraculous recovery, I have a house by the ocean built by Charles Gwathmey, I don't have to pay for PG&E because I have a wind turbine which generates enough power for me and all of my neighbors, my electric car runs off of this power, but I also have another car...I don't know what...I'm done with school. I have a Ph.D. I see my friends and family all the time and have them over all the time. I live in abundance and have a deep sense of security. I am free to explore. I feel safe enough to risk daringly and achieve great things in life. I am successful.  I am satisfied. I also have contributed something of substance to the world around me.

41. Is your cup half empty or half full?

Half empty right now...I need to change that perspective and have more appreciation for what I have. And also to realize that life is dynamic and changing and that I can always change my fortune..I can build. I can make something better than I have ever known or imagined.

42. Have you ever been afraid of someone?

Sort of. I've been afraid of rejection. Of not being liked or accepted. I was afraid for a while that a particular person was going to harm me physically. But for the most part my fears of other people are relating to acceptance. I've been afraid of not being loved for who I am.

43. Why?

Because when you like someone, you want to be liked in return. I think that's only natural. And not everyone is going to like you. It's just part of life. Some will exclude you. Some will never understand you. Rarely, but sometimes...if you risk it...you will love someone...and that feeling will not re reciprocated. And that's painful. So whether it's friends, or lovers...I think we all just want to be loved and accepted for who we are. With all of our imperfections..to still be worthy of and deserving of love and appreciation. In theory we are...but the reality is the *experience* isn't always like that every second of the ride.

44. Do two wrongs make a right?

Sometimes. :-)