Friendly But Odd Looks

April 3rd, 2008; 9:19 PM
Current mood:curious

This evening, I met with some of my classmates. They are luckily two people that I like and find interesting. I was glad to be there with them. We are working on a project together, and I hope that we end up friends. Beginnings are always strange though. Sometimes I say things, and a person doesn’t yet know who I am...and so there is that quizzical look that I get sometimes from people, when they just don’t have me figured out yet. ...Like...Am I a hippie? Or a conservative? What am I? I came dressed in office attire...but I like organic...and I talk about world peace...and methods of non-violent resistance....but I also have a blunt way of speaking sometimes and debating...and I think people just don’t know what to think in the beginning. Because I am not easily put into a nice little homogenized container early on. ...Or if you do...you run the risk of greatly misinterpreting me. (Which is a common enough experience.) I’ve had *hippies* that thought I represented *the man* -not true. And conservative Christians who thought I was one step away from the commune, because of some of my liberal views. -Also not true. I think I just like to explore all sides. And make my own decisions.

...Oh ...but I hate that look. It means to me, that I am not doing a very good job of letting a person get to know me. I’m not leting them see the parts of me that are good and easy to connect with, and I’m not letting it unfold easily...like the petals of a flower. I do that sometimes. Meh. :-P