Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Same Same

May 19th, 2009; 9:37 PM
Lisa is his friend on Facebook! Lisa! That old married lady that has been stringing him along for years. She is so like him, in that they are both completely self centered. She is married. She has two kids. She also has caused immense pain to me, and also pain to Joshua. She has helped create a situation, where Joshua cannot be in a healthy relationship and neither can she. I mean how loving can her marriage be if she makes causes like these? If she lies and does things which would undermine the intimacy, trust, stability, and happiness of her whole family? He is by no means innocent. He after all maintained this relationship with her, all while telling me that it was over between them. They seem to have a shifty version of morals if this type of behavior is *understandable* and OK for them. To me, they just have a complete disregard for the feelings and wellbeing of others. It's just all about them. I doubt that their "thing" will ever result in actual sex, or a real relationship. But what it does do is make a distinct wedge between him and I and makes it so that I cannot fully trust him, or give him my heart. To do that would be bad for me. I would not be a wise person if I gave him those things, since he has shown how he cannot handle them with care. He is not a good stuard of my trust or love. As Niki would say: "He doesn't deserve you."

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