Momentum

January 18th, 2009; 10:19 PM
Current mood:hopeful

Momentum.

It is the force which helps us predict where we will be in the future. Of course predictions are always just guess work. In any moment, we may stop in our tracks and change directions entirely. The question is: How to build positive momentum? This situation is like a rusty train, frozen in it's tracks. Rusted to its tracks after a year of cold rain. The world is grey. And the force required to make this train move again is at present, unimaginable. And yet, I have the desire. Dreams, hopes, and heartfelt wishes; die and fade slowly. And eventhough I rarely even utter aloud one of my deepest wishes, embers of it still live within my heart. I am so far off from it now, it seems rediculous to even hope for it anymore. There were times, not too long ago, that it was so close. That that dream almost seemed to sing me to bed at night. How quickly things change and turn to ash. The fact that things can change quickly, is the only thing that keeps me holding on some days. I always remind myself of that. Things can change very quickly, in unexpected ways. So when it's dark, I look forward to the change. And hope for something unimaginably wonderful.