I can always tell when I am stressed by the dreams that I have, how rested I feel upon waking, if I wake up happy and excited, and the transient thoughts that drift in and out of my consciousness as I am just waking up but not quite awake yet. The last one is really big. When I am stressed I have such negative thoughts. And they're so strange to me. I try to willfully *delete* them from my thinking and replace them with good images and positive future pacing...but they creep in again and block those out. The only thing to do then is to get up and change the subject all together. Get going on stuff. Be so busy that my negativity doesn't have room to occupy my mind. I would love to conquer this bad habit once and for all. I am not sure how. But man...when I get this one down, I will be so much happier. Bad stuff happens to everyone. Life is hard for everyone sometimes. But I really want to have control of my mind. I want to be calm in a storm, and be confident of my abilities and power to effect positive change. I also want to be able to relax and enjoy the good times when I can, without poisoning them with fear or sadness (which is relevant to what is going on...but still....ya gotta take a break and have some fun and relax.) At the very least, when I'm sleeping, I should be relaxed and enjoying it. Or when I wake up, I should be happy. Or when I see my mom and she says "I love you" well then I should have the time to say "I love you too" and really feel how good that feels.
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