Falling Asleep on the Phone is Divine!

• Apr. 1st, 2008 at 11:34 AM

 Last evening I spoke with Joshua. It was good on many levels. He was supportive. And I felt like I had not only a good friend in him, but someone who really cares for me and tries to have my back. I have a hard time falling into that feeling completely, and trusting it. Some would say for good reasons...But I can see that weather or not I have "good reasons" for feeling that way, it is not how I want to live or who I want to be. It makes it hard for people to get close to me and creates it's own set of problems. Resilience and wisdom are two traits that would help here. Anyhoo..
We had a good talk. It was fun for both of us. We found ourselves laughing and joking like old friends. I even made him have a laughing fit. (I love that sound!) And we closed our eyes and imagined being there with each other (in the moment)...And how it would feel and even smell. I love the smell of his hair, and the softness of the nape of his neck. :-) His hair smells like chamomile tea.
We talked late into the evening, even though we both had to work in the morning. He kept wanting to talk to me..eventually he fell asleep on the phone. It's been a long time since we've done that. When we first started dating, we did that all the time. I loved just hearing his rhythmic breathing. It was a warm and fuzzy feeling. When we used to do it, we would sleep and then wake up and wish each other a good morning and a good day. This time I just listened to his breathing for a moment and then gently wished him a good night, and told him "I love you" ...I figure it feels good to hear (even if you're asleep!)

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