The night before last, I had the best nights rest I've had in a long time. I slept peacefully. I had no dreams. I woke calmly and happily. I want to manifest more of that and less of my dreams from last night. I had two horrible nightmares last night. How come I can actually remember them!? In one of them, I was falling asleep, when I heard a noise like a glass bottle falling on the ground and some sort of liquid coming out. In my dream, I was so tired and it was so late, that I almost just passed out, but instead I fought off my drowsiness and went to see what the noise was. It was my mom, and she was trying to commit suicide. The thing that had fallen was a container of paint thinner. She was trying to drink it. And she has cut off part of her thumb and had some sort of brown paint all over her hand and the wound. Apparently the pigments were toxic. I started to cry and tell her "NO! Don't you know I need you? Oh God, no! I love you!" It was so stressful. I had to get her to the hospital as quickly as I could. Her hand was shaking. And then I woke up.
In my other nightmare, I ended up having one of my Profs take me into a private room and get mad at me. And then I ended up flipping out and calling her a cunt!??! (Something that I am shocked I would even dream about!) When I went into class today, I was actually stressed out about my dream and nervous that (this is totally silly....but I was actually nervous that it was some sort of bad omen. -Totally ridiculous I know...) Nothing happened. It was not an omen. It was just a bad dream. I did not call my teacher a cunt, and my mom has no desire to kill herself.
I wish I didn't dream when I am stressed. I honestly only want happy dreams or nothing.
In my other nightmare, I ended up having one of my Profs take me into a private room and get mad at me. And then I ended up flipping out and calling her a cunt!??! (Something that I am shocked I would even dream about!) When I went into class today, I was actually stressed out about my dream and nervous that (this is totally silly....but I was actually nervous that it was some sort of bad omen. -Totally ridiculous I know...) Nothing happened. It was not an omen. It was just a bad dream. I did not call my teacher a cunt, and my mom has no desire to kill herself.
I wish I didn't dream when I am stressed. I honestly only want happy dreams or nothing.
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