Stupid Fear

November 11th, 2007; 8:04 PM

Current mood:melancholy

So today we had another meeting with the lovely young womens division. We talked a bit about a bunch of different topics ...some buddhist philosophy woven in here and there and how it relates to their lives. ...And I felt like a bit of a hyppocrite. Here I was telling them to go forward with courage in their lives, to really manifest their buddha nature, and overcome their obstacles particularly with relationships (not just the romantic kind...friends, parents, siblings, peers, etc) and in my heart I was dying. I had somewhat given up across the board. Maybe not completely given up. But honestly I was dead in the water with no forward momentum on some relationships that were very important to me, and yet, I wasn't doing anything about them. I do have a lot of personal power, but I was/am failing to use it. It's scary when you don't know how things will turn out. Or you fear that they just won't turn out well no matter what you do. I'm afraid, so I'm not doing anything. I like to think of it as practical. Or realistic. But really it's just scared. Maybe I'll get over it soon and do something about it?

My Deep Lesson

March 17th, 2007; 5:41 PM

Current mood:happy

Life can be a whirlwind sometimes...but luckily, I can be a dervish...so I can handle it. Lately I am grasping a new and important life lesson. Here it is people:

In life, there will be times when you will have expectations of how other people should treat you, and they will have different expectations of how they should behave. For example, having someone lie to you, when you expected them to be honest. Leaving you to feel disappointment. And being disappointed is just par for the course. People will sometimes disappoint you, and it's best to learn early on how to cope with it and move on. Don't get stuck on it. And it's still ok to have expectations of how you want to be treated such as: with honesty, compassion, friendship, warmth, love, sincerity, and openness. But if that is not your experience of life every waking minute of every waking day, do not despair or hold a grudge, just move on from that moment and look forward to future moments when you will experience life as you like it to be.

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  omar

  I don't think words should ever overtake personal truth. I find how I react to people disappointing me to be very personal and I prefer to have no set rules on how I react, so after reading what you wrote above I have completely disguarded it.
  
  ~Omar

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  4 years ago
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    omar

    I just read your response. I appreciate you being open and responsive to my ideas. :)
    
    ~Omar

    4 years ago
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    Turbo Intercooler

    Hey Omar Budomar!

    I'm not sure if I'm misunderstanding you or if you're misunderstanding me or none of the above, but....I never throw away people. I never give up on the kind of future that I want to have which is one filled with love, peace, and friendship. And yes, I fully agree with you, that there can be circumstances that can trigger a fault with a person's character causing them to lie and such. I am actually very forgiving with those kinds of things because I fully understand (f

    4 years ago
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    omar

    For instance, what if there were circumstances that triggered a fault with a person's character that caused them to lie. I differ from the above in that I would not hold a grudge in the first place. That's not me. I'd rather try to understand, not necessarily move on.
    
    ~Omar

    4 years ago